I’m currently listening to Elevation Worship’s ‘Here Again’, and that’s where my caption is from. I’m reminded that God is in this place. This place that seems so desolate and dry. This place that’s so full of pain, and what feels like consequences of bad decisions. This place with Unmet expectations, lack, uncertainty, loneliness, rejection, etc.
As much as I share, I keep a lot to myself. Especially if it’s something I consider a bad experience. I generally put on a strong front, and do my best to be strong for everyone around me, and to do so I don’t let myself break down or show weakness. I take charge, find solutions and get things done, even if I’m carrying a truckload of pain inside.
I’m going through a lot, and I’ve been for some time now, and honestly I don’t know when this season will end, but they that sow in tears reap in joy. Isn’t it funny when you’re in harvest season, but also in sowing season? So I’m harvesting and that’s work on it’s own, but I’m also sowing.
Anyway, let’s talk about something nice now. I moved into my friend, Olamide’s house this week. I love her house, but she doesn’t. I think I love it, because I love projects. It’s such a beautiful space if you can see the potential, because it does need renovation. There’s work that can be done to make it better, but honestly I love the house. It has the largest balcony, with lots of space for flower pots, a beautiful backdrop for pictures, it has a big enough living room, and the view from the bedroom window is gorgeous. Especially at night. Even the view from the couch in the living room is perfect. I think the best view is the one from the balcony though.
That’s the view from the couch.
View 1 from bedroom window.
View 2 from bed window.
Panoramic view from balcony.
The bathroom needs the most work, and if I do take the house, that’s the first thing I’ll fix. Olamide isn’t staying in Istanbul, so the plan is that I’ll take over the house when she leaves. Let’s hope I can afford it by then. Anyway talking about this, and trying to take pictures for this post, and understanding something God was trying to say to me by writing it has lifted my spirit, so now I’m going to try to figure out something to eat, and then maybe I’ll sleep.
Love, Yoma
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