Have you reached a point that just feels like rock bottom in your emotional life?
Because I have, and it doesn’t feel very nice. I spent today in the pits emotionally.
I can’t count how many times I was assaulted by memories. I actually broke down in tears of anger and frustration at some point. I was just upset about being judged and disliked.
I realized something today. I kept feeling disconnected from God, and nothing bothers me as much as that. God however is faithful and loves me enough to help me realize when this is happening, and also remind me that what I need is faith, because righteousness is accorded to us by faith not works.
I realized that when you’re in the pits emotionally, you struggle to be productive.
However in all of this I actually just want to give thanks to God. For direction especially. God leads me and I just want to praise His Holy Name for that. It’s not like I’m perfect, because trust me I’m not, but He is and so I’m fine, I rest in His perfection.
God has been so good to me. He has given me so much love, and faith and I’m just grateful. I praise God for everything, He gave me a good gift today, and I’m grateful.
In moments where I’m exhausted from life’s battery and just feeling so overwhelmed, I just remember to thank God for the blessings He has given me instead.
When life seems to be kicking your butt, people seem to have discarded you, or seem to be judging you, or misunderstanding you, and you have no idea what to do, just praise and remember to count your blessings instead.
PS: It’s okay to rest, and take time off being ‘Productive’. If it’s only one thing you can manage to create in a day that too is okay. Clap for yourself, you’re doing just fine.
Love, Yoma.
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